learning to trust!

The other day I decided to bike to the post office which is a mile away. All was going fine. The sun was shining and the wind was blowing my hair in millions of different directions.

By the time I got to the post office... my muscles were burning from going uphill the whole way. I locked up my bike and went in to mail some letters.

Once my post office mission was done. I set off to my next mission... biking to the dollar store which was another 1.5 miles away. As I biked... I found myself in a really sweet and precious time of communication with my Heavenly Father.

When I got to the Dollar Store, I got off my bike and started to lock it up. It was then that it suddenly hit me that my bike lock was gone. I was dumb stuck and pretty upset. At first I was like... oh well, I could just go in and forget about it and get another lock whenever. Then it was like, I can't go in because somebody might take my bike and this isn't really MY bike because somebody is letting me use their bike and I really do NOT want their bike stolen. So then it was like... I don't have any other choice then to bike back uphill to the post office to see if I could find my bicycle lock.

It was as I started to bike back that I became VERY angry with God. Here I had been having such sweet fellowship with Him and then He lets this happen to me (although I can laugh about it now... I was pretty disturbed by it then ). I began to talk to Him and tell my Father just the way I felt and what was going on inside. He began to tell me that He did this to teach me to trust Him. He said that everything was going to be ok... that I could rest in the fact that He had EVERYTHING under control. I bicycled back to the Post Office and when I got there... guess what I found? My lock! I then went back to the dollar store to finish my mission.

I am still learning to trust God. It is getting easier to give Him full reign and access to my heart.... but it is still a daily, moment by moment descion. I pray that nothing will hold me back... that I will be able to trust God with my all.